Carpet

Carpet under my feet

I’ve been trying hard to keep it clean

Maybe I should just go back to sleep, back to sleep

Map on the wall above my bed

All of the places I’ve never been

Sometimes I close my eyes and pretend

I’m miles away from here

Where nobody knows who I am

Three, two, one disappear

But I’m still alone, stuck at home, in my room

Call me lonely call me sad

That I’m ungrateful for what I have

But I guess it’s really not that bad, not that bad

Books stacked high upon the ground

A little normal calms me down

Yeah I might be okay or I might freak out

I’m miles away from here

Where nobody knows who I am

Three, two, one disappear

But I’m still alone, stuck at home, in my room

Madeleine, Kristen Kuiper

HANDFUL

Keep on walking with my empty pocks and a handful

That’s what happens when you keep on planning with a pencil

Secondary to a temporary kind of retro

Tying knots might help to connect the dots and maybe let go

All the changes in the way

All the places I can’t stay

Woo hoo hoo

Yeah, yeah

Keep on running with a loaded gun and rusty scissors

It’s probably nothing but I feel much better when I’m with ya

All the changes in the way

All the places I can’t stay

Woo hoo hoo

Yeah, yeah

Jeff Anderson, Madeleine

machines

All week long we think about our machines

Keep on going, no one knows what it means

Mind the silence, don’t speak of what you need

Drowning slowly inside the in-between

Ahhh, getting lost, running on

All the wrong streets

Ahhh, if you stop, you get caught

Swallowed up by your own screams

Find a place we can hide out from the machines

Out of sight from cameras and TV screens

Keep on moving, heads down, cutting wires

Save the city, barricades all on fire

Ahhh, getting lost, running on

All the wrong streets

Ahhh, if you stop, you get caught

Swallowed up by your own screams

Standing strong we have to hold our ground

A little longer, can’t lose hope right now

Ahhh, getting lost, running on

All the wrong streets

Ahhh, if you stop, you get caught

Swallowed up by your own screams

Jeff Anderson, Madeleine

cerulean

Julian,

I’ll swim to you on the meridian

Racing the waves on cerulean

On my way home

Wait for me

You’re way too far away from me

Why did you ever let me leave?

Why did you let me roam?

Oooh, I don’t wanna waste another second out here

Oooh, I know I’ve been gone too long my dear

Until I get to you

Everything’s cerulean

Julian,

I need to be in your arms again

I wanna tell you about where I’ve been

And that I missed you so

Oooh, I don’t wanna waste another second out here

Oooh, I know I’ve been gone too long my dear

Until I get to you

Everything’s cerulean

Jeff Anderson, Madeleine, Karleen Watt

middle seat

Here in my house on my couch with the lights out

Takes one to know one and I ain’t no one

Just trying to figure it out

You say it’s better to be upside down

Than right side up and away with

What I thought I knew about getting older

Now I’m sat here crying on your shoulder

In my house and on my couch with the lights out

Here in this car middle seat between two hearts

I hate that I show it and god I know

It’s safe to say it’s all my fault

I’d feel much better if I could get out

And hide my face between

Where I thought I’d be is getting farther

With every mile in this car

Middle seat between two hearts

You say that I know enough but I’m not old enough (x2)

Here in my house on my couch with the lights out

Takes one to know one and I ain’t no one

Just trying to figure it out

Madeleine

take what you can

Now here we go, we go again

Back to the start, the start again

Keep running circles cause we never really stop

It' all went up, went up in smoke

Turned right in to, in to a joke

This circus ride’s on fire and I’m trying to get off

Look around

At this house of clowns

Yeah it’s falling down

Better take what you can and run

All our sense and sensibilities

Dr. King and both the Kennedy’s

Hippie dreams of love and peace all gone before the seventies

Look around

At this house of clowns

Yeah it’s falling down

Better take what you can and run

Where did you go Joe DiMaggio?

Where did you go?

Look around

At this house of clowns

Yeah it’s falling down

Better take what you can and run

Jeff Anderson, Madeleine

matter of if

Lonely isn’t the only reason I’m here

Been hiding my broken heart behind this veneer

Baby I know, you don’t want me anymore

Baby just for tonight please lend me your kiss

Pretend that you really feel the way that I wish

Hold me tight ‘til I’m gone in the morning

I know love’s a silly thing

For fools and dreams

But still I’m hoping

Some day when my ship comes in

It’ll find me with

My heart wide open

It’s not a matter of if but more like when

I’ll fall and put it all back together again

Baby I know, I’ll just keep on going

I know love’s a silly thing

For fools and dreams

But still I’m hoping

Some day when my ship comes in

It’ll find me with

My heart wide open

Jeff Anderson, Madeleine

BASEMENT

Where the wall meets the ceiling

Fill the cracks with the ghost I’ve been seeing

I’ve been fighting the way I’ve been feeling

And the fan spins around

Blankets on my chest like a dead weight

Heart flutters like it’s caught in a birdcage

My mom will tell me, “Yeah, it’s just a phase”

And the fan spins around

Spiderwebs they will remain

In the basement of my brain

Follow footsteps down the stairs

I don’t know where the light switch is

The alarm clock flickers

I’m a page in a book with no pictures

I roll over and silently shiver

And the fan spins around

A box of things I don’t know what to do with

Apologies on and old to-do list

I’m making plans to do the dishes

And the fan spins around

Spiderwebs they will remain

In the basement of my brain

Follow footsteps down the stairs

I don’t know where the light switch is

Maybe tomorrow

I’ll beg or borrow

Some kind of amplified or fantasized

Strength to open my eyes

Where the wall meets the ceiling

Fill the cracks with the ghosts I’ve been seeing

I’ve been fighting the way I’ve been feelings

And the fan spins around

Madeleine, Olivia Rudeen

YELLOW PAINT

A dab’ll do ya, for me for you

Yellow happy, sadness blue

Paint by numbers, mind the lines

If you could only see what I see

With open eyes, you just might believe

I know it’s dark

But if I could paint you, I would paint you like the sun

If I could paint you, I would paint you like the stars

So bright, so bright you would never fade away

Never fade away

When all the colors wash to gray

Lost in a sea of darker days

You might think you’re broken

But if I could paint you, I would paint you like the sun

If I could paint you, I would paint you like the stars

So bright, so bright you would never fade away

Never fade away

Sometimes it feels like it’ll always be this way

It’s not a feeling that you can fix with just a little yellow paint

But if I could paint you, I would paint you like the sun

If I could paint you, I would paint you like the stars

So bright, so bright you would never fade away

Never fade away

Jeff Anderson, Madeleine, Frank Maroney